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May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 August 2009 September 2009 April 2010 May 2011

musika . letrato . pelikula . pagbabasa . kaibigan . pamilya . pag ibig . babae . lalake . ka-bitteran . pagsusulat . pangangarap . pagtanga . pagtawa . pagpapatawa . pagdaldal . pakikinig . pag muni muni . pagtambay . minsan minsang pagdadrama . madalas na pag alak d'yan umiikot ang buhay ko

January:

Thesis. Productions. Finals. The January pervert. Cried a few times, regretted a lot of things. Lost my phone. Lost myself. Fucked up month. Needed time for myself. Decided to go on Hiatus, to get rid of people I don't need in my life.

• Learn how to play the game of trust, know who deserves it, never mind those who don't
• Never be afraid of losing people who don’t deserve your time and attention, take the courage to let go and throw them out of your lives
• “It’s when problems are shared that solutions are found” – From Chowking’s fortune cookie 01-18-08
• “In the end you will always go back to the people that were there in the beginning.” – text quote from Jenny (That’s why I never take my friends for granted... mawala na lahat wag lang pamilya ko at sila.)
• “Sometimes it’s not love, sometimes, you’ve just become so attached that you’ve developed a need for that person... Just a need, not love... but you’re too scared to admit it, even to yourself...because you know that if you do, you might lose the only person that actually gives a damn about your life” – text quote from Heyna
• Learn to accept and love yourself, walang ibang gagawa niyan kundi ikaw... hindi kailangang nakadepende palagi sa iba ang pagiging masaya.

February:

Hiatus lasted until 11th of February. Started with a blast. Good vibes. Firsts. The longest yet shortest walk . One time big time. Three years ago we were strangers, snap! then we became friends. Finding myself. Brought back the old me. Valentine's darlings for the day with the Singles. A month of finding oneself, month of happiness and dreams turning in to reality.

• Don't stop dreaming, never stop hoping, dreams come true... kahit one time big time.

March:

A month of closing chapters and opening new ones. Graduation. Inumans as usual. Few heart to heart talks with friends.

• Treasure the friends you have, always be there for them
• Learn to accept changes in your life. Let go move on and be happy

April:

Early summer getaway. Bad news. "The world spins constantly, so does the color wheel". Sad month. Month of pain, regrets and wishes. pressure cooker 1 2 3 kaboom! Hello panget kamay!

• The world spins constantly, so does the color wheel – ana
• “Kahit ikaw ay parang bato manhid at walang pakiramdam, mag-ingat ka dahil kahit ganyan ka, hindi nasasaktan... kaya mo namang makasakit” – Bob Ong
• NEVER BUKSAN ANG PRESSURE COOKER HABANG KUMUKULO

May:

Turned 21. Dead Stars. Deleted my old blog, trying to move on I guess. Deleted the entries but still saved a few. Moved to blogspot. Promised to write happier entries.

• “You’re gonna have your good days and your bad days”- South of Nowhere
• “So all these years-since when? - he had been seeing the light of dead stars , long extinguished, yet seemingly still in their appointed places in the heavens.”-Dead Stars
• Know when enough is enough.

June:

I was badly missing college life. A friend died. Had a sudden change of heart. Put half of my walls down. Still confused and hesitant though. Fears. Had my first ever exam and interview. Screwed up. Got reunited with my grade school and high school friends.June was a month of gambling,a month of courage.

• Don't try to push people out of your life, no one deserves to be taken for granted
• Even if you have new people/friends in your life, never forget those who were part of your past, for you will never complete your life’s puzzle if you lose some of its pieces.

July:

Indie month. Mommy and Daddy had to go to Cebu. Responsibilities. Growing up. Maturity. Hated the rain for reminding me of things/people I was trying to forget. Misunderstandings. Tried to give it another shot. Second chances.

• Never assume
• Learn how to take responsibilities
• Always be mindful of the things you do and the words you say

August:

Driving lessons. Ate was back from Dubai. Eheads reunion concert. Finally decided to get rid of the old dust to let the new ones in.

• No two things can occupy the same space at the same time – law of impenetrability
• Letting go might be hard yet it is the best way to let another stay

September:

Chill month. Inumans

• Find some time to chill, find and reconnect with the things or people you've grown apart from
• Drink.Get drunk.Laugh.have fun... then die haha

October:

A month of firsts. Major changes. Leaving comfort zones. Facing fears. Got hired. First work ever. Lots of inumans. Ate was back from Dubai again. Had my very first paycheck ever. Hello poverty. Finally decided to take my chances, cross the street, take the risks, throw myself in to the lions den.

• “I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with FEAR. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.”---Greys Anatomy
• “BOUNDARIES don’t keep other people out, they fence you in. So you can waste your life drawing lines? Or you can live your life crossing them. Because here’s what I know, if you are willing to take the chance the view from the other side is Spectacular.”---Greys Anatomy

November

Reunion. Wanted to quit my job. "Nagsisimula ka palang quitter ka na" - Mommy

• Patience is a virtue ahaha!

December

December 5 was my last day of being a copywriter. I sure am gonna miss them. Had a burgis Christmas party. Applied again and got hired. Got my license. Family reunions. Back to Bulacan. And just recently found out I've been lied to thank you very much.

• Again Patience is a Virtue
• AGAIN learn how to play the game of trust
• Learn to hate pride

All in all my 2008 was full of Ups and Downs, Yeheys and boo-hoos. But at least I managed to see the lessons in those downs and boo-hoo moments and even in the ups and yeheys hahaha.
This year I’ve gained lots of new friends, and unfortunately lost some.
I’ve made decisions, and regretted some.
But all is done.
I wouldn’t want to waste my short life looking back, feeling bad and regretting things.

and so i quote.....my 18 year old self ahahahahhaha

...always remember to look on the brighter side of life, appreciate every moment, every little thing around us, enjoy each and every moment in life, even the fucked up ones... because in this journey, you can only go forward... there’s no turning back..

Yehey thank you 2008!

I'm ready to let you go.

Good bye!

I'll miss you. I'll miss the old me... young, careless, and stupid.

Hello 2009! I'm ready.. C'mon let's get it on!

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This was my "Goodbye 2007! Welcome 2008" post. In the next few days I'll be posting my Buhbye 08 hello 09 post.. expect a longer one, a lot of changes happened since day 1 of 2008. Changes, goodbye's, hello's, yipeee's, boohooos, happy times, fucked up times...

anyway.. here's my 07-08 post.

Sa mga kasama kong magwork para sa ADSA....

Sa mga kasama ko nung summer sa aking OJT
days....

Sa mga kasama kong napuyat at nabaliw
kakaaral....

Sa mga bagong kakilalang kaibigan....

Sa mga taong nakainuman ko....

Sa mga nag uuwi at nag aalaga sakin tuwing lasing
ako....

Sa mga taong nagpasaya at tuluy tuloy na nagpapasaya sa
buhay ko...

Sa mga taong laging nandyan para sakin....

Sa lahat ng nakaaway ko...bhelat!! hahaha

Sa inyong lahaaaaat na naging part ng 2007
ko.....

SALAMAT SA MGA TAGAY AT KAMPAI.....SALAMAT SA LUHA AT NGITI.... SA LAHAT
NG SERMON....SA PAKIKINIG...

SALAMAT!!!!!

apir everyone....hugs and kisses from me to all of you!!! i love you
all!!

dyan lang kayo may 2008 pa tayo ah! excited na ko!!
hughug!!

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A quote from a friend says:

You won't fully enjoy a swing unless you raise your feet from the ground.
You won't fully enjoy a boat ride unless you remove the rope's knot from the river bank.

Never limit yourself when it comes to happiness, learn how to let go and take risks... Life is much beautiful outside the comfort zone.


Yes darlings I just threw myself in to the lion's den, I've finally left my comfort zone and I'm currently facing two of my greatest fears.

FIRST:
October. I accepted a job and I am now on my 3rd week. I write copies for event banners, annual reports etc. I do love writing, I really really really do love writing but the thing is, my writing style is more on the creative thingamajigs and our clients are janjarararannnn (mostly) government whatevs and MAN!!! I AM REALLY HAVING A HARD TIME!

Maybe I have to put extra effort in reading more matured(ay tunog porno)/corporate stuffs to update my vocabs. AND another thing... I have to learn to cross the fucking streets alone and stop asking the guards to help me get to the other side of the street. PLUS I GOTTA LOVE the buses going to Cubao (especially during taghirap days for tipid effect), and of course I GOTTA LOVE the looooong walk from the dark and stinky street outside Farmer's to Gateway. OR para less hassle I can take the shuttle from St. Francis to Masinag, which is by the way worth 45php (ginto ata ang upuan pero ok lang dahil more comfy kumpara sa bus)

Henewei, when my very first paycheck was given to me parang may mga anghel na tumugtog ng harp at trumpets sa paligid.. but then again narealize ko "Shit! No more baon! No more Daddy pengeng pera pang enjoy" aaaaaaah INDIE KID ANA!!!! aaaaah POVERTYYYYYY!

Oh well, ganyan talaga buhay ... I finally moved on from the fact that I am no longer in college (Goodbye Katipunan.. You will always be my 2nd home), that I have to work my butt off for my vices and luho sa buhay.

Sana maka-survive at maging productive naman ako.

Dear Real World,

Hello! Please don't be too harsh on me...or I might get myself OD-ed joke!(na half-meant)

Ana

SECOND:
October. Ugh.. how do I say this? Uhm.. I am starting to take risks again(?) Hindi ata appropriate yung again because this is a "first" for me, not actually THE first first.. but technically this is THE first.. labo?

This is my THE first and I am scared as hell, I still have a lot to learn, and a lot of adjustments to make... so please patience my dear. MORE patience





There.. October 08 is a risk-taking-decision-making-leaving-comfort-zone month.. I hope not to regret any of these two decisions in the coming days..weeks..months


*fingers crossed*

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Yay! My unemployment days are over. Hahaha and this time totoo na. Goodbye cartoon-watching-mornings. Goodbye ano nanaman kayang gagawin ko bukas-nights. I'm excited and a bit scared actually. Yayks! I hope things'll turn out fine. Goodluck to me! Sana wala akong maging regrets after ilang weeks, or months and sila din.

Please please please good vibes come to me! and another please please please inspire me!! Kailangan kong mainspire sa buhay para I won't run out of ideas and energy na din ahahahaha!

I have to read read read read... and write write write!

Dear Papa Lord,
Thank you thank you so much! :)

lovelove,
ana

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Kahapon naglinis ako maghapon.. naghalungkat ng mga gamit at nagmuni muni... tapos may mga nakita akong kung anu ano..bigla nalang akong natatawa mag isa

Eto si Kotler... naging boyfriend naming lahat nung 2nd year kung hindi ako nagkakamali o 3rd year yun? basta lagi naming kasama, katabi matulog, kasama sa almusal, pati sa inuman.. hahaha akalain mo ba namang prelims namin kailangang basahin yang buong libro tapos ang masaklap pa dyan bubunot ka lang ng isang tanong na sasagutin mo in front of the class.. talagang mag isa nang nagshutdown ang brain ko nung huling gabi bago yung prelims namin..

Hello sa notebook ko! 4th year first sem tama ba? sobrang boring ng class kaya hello doodle doodle haha Theology class yan bantay na bantay ako sa oras dahil naddrain na ang buo kong pagkatao sobrang booooring ng prof namin.. mula 11:00 hanggang 11:45 akong nagdoodle kung anu sinasabi nia sinusulat ko naman ahahah kahit walang saysay


"Hello?? Nasan ang beauty mo" - Tuqxs
Last Order sa Penguin... pinakamasayang play na ginawa namin ever. 2nd year college sa Phil. Literature Class. Nakasingko kami dyan yeheeey! Ilang araw na practice lang.. pero matagalang kabisaduhan ng script. I played the role of Tuqxs. Tapos surprisingly nung 3rd year kami nameet namin ang tunay na Tuqxs as in yung Tuqxs jan sa script na yan.. naging prof namin sa theater. Funny lang kasi yung mga roles na ginampanan namin sa play eh sakto sa personalities namin ahaha.. may dating addict na naging pusher, may kinacareer ang sex life, may jombit, may sawang sawa na sa tumatanda niyang partner etc. Igoogle niyo si sir Tuqxs dali dalii

Nakita ko din yung ginawa naming scrapbook para sa Journ class namin.. pinipilit ng prof namin na photojourn ang tawag dyan.. oo tama ang 5 units na major subject na 'yon wala kaming natutunan kundi gumawa ng scrapbook.. sobrang tamad na tamad akong gumawa inuna kong magpakasaya at magpakabisyo ahaha kaya the night before nung deadline ko lang yan ginawa haha kamusta sa pagccram ko noh? natapos ako 7am na ata ng umaga..

pero naisip ko parang gusto kong gumawa ulit ng scrapbook simula dun sa unang unang naaalala ko wala lang parang masaya lang hahaha

Nakuha ko to nung cocktail party ng red batch. Nanalo ako dahil sa pagkapasaway ahaha! sabi na kasing cocktail party eh so ineexpect na ang lahat ay nakacocktail dress.. after yun ng recognition so naka-cocktail dress naman talaga lahat.. e dahil hindi ako comfy na nakadress nagbihis na ko hahaha! so sa cocktail party na yun nakapants ako..pero hindi jeans noh! hahaha so ayun nanalo ako

• memory box sa loob ng memory baul.. oha organized eh kasi kung lagay ko lang lahat sa baul sobrang kalat dapat konting kalat lang.. anyway..
• ung number 2 sa gilid na hindi masyadong kita ay nakuha ko sa Mcdo tagaytay nalimutan kunin nung waiter e so akin nalang haha.. klepto pala
• tickets ng mga pinanood kong plays, films, at ticket din nung nag global fun kame funfunfun very hilo pag uwi dahil sa pesteng flipper ahaha
• diskette, ahaha halatang kopong kopong pa eh diskette talaga, kailangan namin ng diskette para sa isang subject namin nung 2nd yr college.. so bumili ako sa bookstore sa school, kasabay kong bumuli si crushie non at at at first time ko sya marinig magsalita ahaha! ayun di naman ginamit ung diskette so tinago ko ahaha
• red yarns, seniors retreat nung college (yes NUNG college feeling ko ang tanda ko na) bibigay mo yan sa taong sinosorryhan mo at sa taong gusto mong maging friend forever at maging bagong friend.. may nagbigay sakin nagulat ako talaga
• green frog na bigay ni cha nung christmas haha cute cute
• jagermeister thingy binigay samin nung manager ng Janero, nung mga Janero days haha..since malapit sa ABS-CBN ang Janero lagi naming binibisita yun after OJT.. hay i miss i miss.. maglalasing sa gabi at papasok sa OJT sa umaga.. gusto ko ulit ng ganung life buhay
• green egg.. san ba yan galing? haha aah alam ko na isa sa mga pinakahuling MMP yan
• Marlboro Menthol uhm nagulat nalang ako nasa bag ko yan ahah matagal na kong nagquit mag yosi.. pero may natatagpuan akong mga ganyan at lighters sa bag ko dahil hindi sila pwedeng makitaan ng mga magulang nila ng ganyan ahaha

Notebook ko nung 2nd year college hanggang 3rd year... ang laki ng notebook ko ahaha pero nung 4th year lumiit na..lalo na nung second sem ng 4th year

pagbukas ko ng notebook ko jarann ranting moments with Kayc ang forever blockmate ko

Nung magulong magulong magulong birthday ni Cha..isa sa mga pinakafavorite inuman ko.. may dumaan naliligaw na San Miguel guy.. nagtanong kung san ang papuntang hindi ko alam..pinashot sya at binigyan niya kami ng mga ganyan ahahah! hindi namin alam pangalan niya di ko din maalala mukha niya hilo na ko nun eh ahahha

Merry Christmas gifts ni Jade at Piper nung first year :) orange pa favorite color ni Piper nun.. si Jade ay di pa nagddiet ng nagddiet nun..daming chocolates yey

at eto na nga yung notebook ko nung 4th year 2nd sem kung notebook ngang matatawag yan.. since maliit naman ako magsulat okay na sakin ang maliit na notebook again kung notebook ngang matatawag yan hahah! pang lahat ng subjects ko na yan haha!

at ang Jollibee planner ko nakita ko kasi si Nicnic at ang Jollibee planner niya... inggitera ako at gusto kong mag jollibee kaya bago kami magthesis nag Jollibee muna kami yung mga names names jan e galing sa kung san san..

• Dora = galing sa birthday ni Kelsey
• Filmmaker blahblah = nung film fest sa school yeheyyyy
• Pink Ribbon = sa isang talk na pinuntahan namin after thesis defense ahaha masayang talk yun promise
• Small ewan = yun lang di ko maalala ahaha isa sa mga MMP siguro or talk
• Black id = tech team ako sa theater play namin nung 3rd year
• Cinemalaya = film congress sa CCP
• Detective blahblah = isa sa fun MMP na na-attendan ko, kung san detectives kami lahat aalamin kung anung nangyari dun sa pinatay na hindi ko na maalala yung name haha basta masaya yuuun

favorite ko to kasi may sulatan ng kung anu ano every month

ganyan ako ka-organized ahahah ang gulo gulo gulo gulo oh! parang journal na ahaha! January.. ang sipag ko pa magsulat ahaha. may drawing drawing pa.. may rainbow drawing jan dahil bago ako pumasok nun sa school may nakita akong dalawang rainbows.. tapos feeling ko swerte yun then again hindi ako maswerte nung araw na yun.. oo tama dahil nawala yung phone kong isa na favorite ko kakainis malas malas..pero parang ok lang ahaha sinadya sigurong manakaw yung phone ko para makatakas sa tinatakasan. OO TAMA DEFENSE NAMIN YAN AYAYAY! Kami yung unang nagdefend ng thesis sa lahaaat dahil pabida kami at nag prisinta kami na kami na ang mauuna ahahaha!

February.. puro inuman padin at overnights.. 2 consecutive nights akong hindi natulog sa bahay dahil uminom ako at uminom ako ulit.. sobrang palaboy ahaha! ayun pag uwi ko lagot.. pero ok lang ahahah

February is a lovelove month.. month para sa happy hearts ahaha..

• sinimulan ang month ng panonood ng LAST ORDER SA PENGUIN.. ahaha oo tama yung play na ginawa namin nung 2nd year "Nasan ang byuti mo?" grabe sobrang nakakatuwa yung play. Twice kong pinanood kaya dalawa yung tickets mas funny yung pangalawang nood namin sobrang tawa ko ng tawa.
• Tag ng binili kong uhm anu nga bang tawag dun? di ko maalala basta si Bits.. short for bitones
• Rakestra ticket, nanood kami ng UP fair ni Cha, Q, at Piper.. kahit may pasok kinabukasan.. fun fun night dahil sa bonggang bonggang gabi para sa Sandwich ayayayay! At hello balara boys and girls na wala nang mas gugulo pa ahaha! sa sobrang likot namin ni Cha napadpad kami sa may gitna kung san nagkakagulo ang mga Balara kids ayayay asim! ahaha! Traumatic pero ayun naisip ko never ko naman nang magagawa yun pag 30 na ko so ok lang ahaha!
• Frenzy banana ehem bago ka mag isip ng kung ano.. sa isang MMP class namin nagkaron ng talk about safe sex so yung nagreport nung day na yun ay may dalang mga ganyan.. funny lang dahil halos lahat samin nun lang nakakita at nakahawak nyan ahaha at nagulat kami kasi amoy banana nga siya ahaha!! at dahil yung prof lang namin ang nag iisang lalake don natatawa tawa siya sa pagka ignorante naming lahat ahahah!
• Black thingy ay yung pinamigay nung play ang bango bango ah infairness!!
• Pink ribbon at yung galing sa beer in can.. hindi ko nasama yung sa Go nuts..pero isasama ko promise.. ayun dahil February ang month para sa mga lovers at nagkataong madami dami kaming single sa barkada naisip naming pasayahin ang mga sarili namin para hindi naman kami bitter bitteran sa araw ng mga lovers.. so nagbunutan kami kung sino ang magiging girlfriend ng sino sa hearts day.. tapos iisipan ng surprise at isusurprise sa Valentines ahaha! Si Wendy ang nakabunot sa name ko kaya ako ang isusurprise niya.. haha funny ng ginawa niya basta basta nakakatuwa.. binigyan niya ko ng cupcake, chocolate na may almonds ayayay, at redhorse in can ahahah! suweeet!
• Isang malaking kung ano.. launch ng what these hands can do tama ba? hindi ko naman napuntahan dahil gumagawa ako ng comm plan..tsktsk..
• Yellow ribbon happy hearts day galing kay cha..

mga stars ay galing kay Ria.. sa MMP nila.. yung picture galing kay Cha.. :)

Ayun so ang point ko masayang maglinis ng kwarto, magsinghot ng lumang alikabok at makaalala ng masasayang kung anu ano..

Naisip ko din na kesa magmukhang basurahan yung memory baul ko yung ibang pwedeng mailagay sa planner ilalagay ko nalang sa planner..tapos pagkatapos ng year ilalagay ko na pati yung planner sa memory baul ko.. ayy excited na kong bumili ng planner para sa 2009 ahaha excited na din akong magdikit ng kung anu ano.. teka parang naging year ender yung entry ko ahhaah hindi pa hindi pa excited ako masyado ahahah! sana lang wag masira yung planner ko kakadikit ko ng kung anu ano.. Speaking of,, mag uupdate pala ako ng planner na mejo hindi na nagagalaw simula nung maging tambay ako ahaha!

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