Year end entry
got wasted on Dec 30, 2008; 11:02 PM
January:
Thesis. Productions. Finals. The January pervert. Cried a few times, regretted a lot of things. Lost my phone. Lost myself. Fucked up month. Needed time for myself. Decided to go on Hiatus, to get rid of people I don't need in my life.
- Learn how to play the game of trust, know who deserves it, never mind those who don't
- Never be afraid of losing people who don’t deserve your time and attention, take the courage to let go and throw them out of your lives
- “It’s when problems are shared that solutions are found” – From Chowking’s fortune cookie 01-18-08
- “In the end you will always go back to the people that were there in the beginning.” – text quote from Jenny (That’s why I never take my friends for granted... mawala na lahat wag lang pamilya ko at sila.)
- “Sometimes it’s not love, sometimes, you’ve just become so attached that you’ve developed a need for that person... Just a need, not love... but you’re too scared to admit it, even to yourself...because you know that if you do, you might lose the only person that actually gives a damn about your life” – text quote from Heyna
- Learn to accept and love yourself, walang ibang gagawa niyan kundi ikaw... hindi kailangang nakadepende palagi sa iba ang pagiging masaya.
February:
Hiatus lasted until 11th of February. Started with a blast. Good vibes. Firsts. The longest yet shortest walk . One time big time. Three years ago we were strangers, snap! then we became friends. Finding myself. Brought back the old me. Valentine's darlings for the day with the Singles. A month of finding oneself, month of happiness and dreams turning in to reality.
- Don't stop dreaming, never stop hoping, dreams come true... kahit one time big time.
March:
A month of closing chapters and opening new ones. Graduation. Inumans as usual. Few heart to heart talks with friends.
- Treasure the friends you have, always be there for them
- Learn to accept changes in your life. Let go move on and be happy
April:
Early summer getaway. Bad news. "The world spins constantly, so does the color wheel". Sad month. Month of pain, regrets and wishes. pressure cooker 1 2 3 kaboom! Hello panget kamay!
- The world spins constantly, so does the color wheel – ana
- “Kahit ikaw ay parang bato manhid at walang pakiramdam, mag-ingat ka dahil kahit ganyan ka, hindi nasasaktan... kaya mo namang makasakit” – Bob Ong
- NEVER BUKSAN ANG PRESSURE COOKER HABANG KUMUKULO
May:
Turned 21. Dead Stars. Deleted my old blog, trying to move on I guess. Deleted the entries but still saved a few. Moved to blogspot. Promised to write happier entries.
- “You’re gonna have your good days and your bad days”- South of Nowhere
- “So all these years-since when? - he had been seeing the light of dead stars , long extinguished, yet seemingly still in their appointed places in the heavens.”-Dead Stars
- Know when enough is enough.
June:
I was badly missing college life. A friend died. Had a sudden change of heart. Put half of my walls down. Still confused and hesitant though. Fears. Had my first ever exam and interview. Screwed up. Got reunited with my grade school and high school friends.June was a month of gambling,a month of courage.
- Don't try to push people out of your life, no one deserves to be taken for granted
- Even if you have new people/friends in your life, never forget those who were part of your past, for you will never complete your life’s puzzle if you lose some of its pieces.
July:
Indie month. Mommy and Daddy had to go to Cebu. Responsibilities. Growing up. Maturity. Hated the rain for reminding me of things/people I was trying to forget. Misunderstandings. Tried to give it another shot. Second chances.
- Never assume
- Learn how to take responsibilities
- Always be mindful of the things you do and the words you say
August:
Driving lessons. Ate was back from Dubai. Eheads reunion concert. Finally decided to get rid of the old dust to let the new ones in.
- No two things can occupy the same space at the same time – law of impenetrability
- Letting go might be hard yet it is the best way to let another stay
September:
Chill month. Inumans
- Find some time to chill, find and reconnect with the things or people you've grown apart from
- Drink.Get drunk.Laugh.have fun... then die haha
October:
A month of firsts. Major changes. Leaving comfort zones. Facing fears. Got hired. First work ever. Lots of inumans. Ate was back from Dubai again. Had my very first paycheck ever. Hello poverty. Finally decided to take my chances, cross the street, take the risks, throw myself in to the lions den.
- “I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with FEAR. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying.”---Greys Anatomy
- “BOUNDARIES don’t keep other people out, they fence you in. So you can waste your life drawing lines? Or you can live your life crossing them. Because here’s what I know, if you are willing to take the chance the view from the other side is Spectacular.”---Greys Anatomy
November
Reunion. Wanted to quit my job. "Nagsisimula ka palang quitter ka na" - Mommy
- Patience is a virtue ahaha!
December
December 5 was my last day of being a copywriter. I sure am gonna miss them. Had a burgis Christmas party. Applied again and got hired. Got my license. Family reunions. Back to Bulacan. And just recently found out I've been lied to thank you very much.
- Again Patience is a Virtue
- AGAIN learn how to play the game of trust
- Learn to hate pride
All in all my 2008 was full of Ups and Downs, Yeheys and boo-hoos. But at least I managed to see the lessons in those downs and boo-hoo moments and even in the ups and yeheys hahaha.
This year I’ve gained lots of new friends, and unfortunately lost some.
I’ve made decisions, and regretted some.
But all is done.
I wouldn’t want to waste my short life looking back, feeling bad and regretting things.
and so i quote.....my 18 year old self ahahahahhaha
...always remember to look on the brighter side of life, appreciate every moment, every little thing around us, enjoy each and every moment in life, even the fucked up ones... because in this journey, you can only go forward... there’s no turning back..
Yehey thank you 2008!
I'm ready to let you go.
Good bye!
I'll miss you. I'll miss the old me... young, careless, and stupid.
Hello 2009! I'm ready.. C'mon let's get it on!
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