"..it's important to let certain things go. To release them. To cut loose. People need to understand that no one is playing with marked cards; sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Don't expect to get anything back, don't expect recognition for your efforts, don't expect your genius to be discovered or your love to be understood. Complete the circle. Not out of pride, inability or arrogance, but simply because whatever it is no longer fits in your life. Close the door, change the record, clean the house, get rid of the dust. Stop being who you were and become who you are.. "

- The Zahir (Paolo Coelho)

What if who you were is better than who you are now? Should you still continue to be who you are and forget/stop being who you were?

I had this "not-so-good" conversation with an old friend, I chose not to reply to her last message because I didn't liked the way she reacted and her message was a bit rude and nakakabastos. It wasn't like her. I was so bothered so I told my mom and my sister about it. My ate's comment was "Ano ba yang mga nagiging kaibigan mo? Di ba may kinuwento ka na din dati na friend mo na nagtetext at tumatawag lang pag may kailangan?" The "friend" she was talking about? We weren't really that close, and to be honest uhm we're not even friends we were just uhm what? classmates? But this "old friend" is different, and she wasn't like that when I met her that's why I feel really sad and a bit disappointed. I wanted to tell her "Money isn't the only important thing in this world dear...and please stop blaming other people if things aren't going the way you wanted it to be".

I guess that proves it, change? it's inevitable.. relationships, environment, beliefs, these things change, people.. even friends. It's not too surprising to see enemies suddenly becoming bff's, but for us I guess it's the other way around...but uhm I hope not. I don't want to be in a "let's just pretend we never became friends" situation with her, she's still my friend after all...(but she surely is far different from the friend I met so-so years ago)

Anyway, after that "not-so-good" conversation I had with her I started wondering how much I've changed since we last met, and if these changes made me a better person or not. . .

Uhm, I don't know...I think.. I'm hating this..bow